Total confusion - advice please?

All I can say is, human uality is between gay & bi, if we have the perfect opportunity to be ourselves. We try to hide our feelings because of the phobic society. I truly understand how you feel. The loneliness & the pain of betrayal. I was in a similar sitaution last year when I broke up with my boy friend & until now, I can`t possibly date anyone yet because I am scared due to lack of trust. Be strong & be yourself. We are simply here to have human experience & to have happiness. Whatever makes you happy, go for it. Good luck.